Archive for August, 2004

I am ready to repent.
I realize that I was kinda having a pity party on my last blog. I wasn’t taking time to count my blessings or I would have spent that time praising God. Praise Him for a wonderful husband that loves me very, very much. ( even when I am whiny!) Praise Him for our precious children, Michael, Catherine, Danielle and Christopher. Praise Him for friends and family that love us and care for us in many manifest ways!!! We love you guys! You are deeply appreciated! (Thank you all) Praise him for allowing our friend Helen Carslaw, of England, to come back for a visit and allowing us to practice our hospitality on her! Praise Him for the low rent that we pay (even if it might be raised some day, at least it is low now.)

I guess that what I am repenting of is, not living in the now. I have been worrying about the future and not thanking God for the daily manna that he IS providing for today. And if he is providing for today, why not trust him for tomorrow. I don’t want to be like the whiny Israelites. I want to fully trust in the LORD like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in front of the King… Like Daniel in the Lion’s den…Like Ruth…Like Mary. I want to be faithful to trust God, as he is faithful to be worthy of that trust.

I was reading a Children’s Bible storybook to the kids the other night. The story was about Rachel and Jacob. She and Jacob had plans to get married after Jacob worked for her father for seven years…but her father played a trick. He made Jacob marry Leah first since she was the older sister. Rachel must have been hurt, sad, devastated and angry but all she could do about this change in plans was to wait and trust that God was in control.

Two sentences hit me squarely in my truth receptors…

“Sometimes life takes unexpected twists. Those can be very hard, especially if it means that plans you have had for a long time must now change.
It’s important to remember that nothing surprises God. Nothing will happen to you that he doesn’t know about first.”

I have heard that before, but I needed to hear it again. (And I will probably need to hear it some more.) God has seen our situation and he hears us.

The scripture that goes along with this story is from Jeremiah 17:7 Blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence.
That is what I want to do.


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Living on the edge

I guess that is what is going on with me…I feel like I am living on the edge of a cliff and losing my grip. That is why I have been feeling and acting edgy. I don’t like feeling like this and I don’t like showing my edginess in front of people. Life seems to keep throwing us sticks and stones. Or at least that is what it feels like. Okay I know some of you are dying to tell me to stop relying on my feelings. Very well. I will focus on trusting in the LORD. It would be great if some of you could remind me that it will be all right.
I need to find a job… soon! My youngest child is starting school this year. I hate that I probably won’t be able to be a part of his first year of school. But I know that many other women are in the same predicament. Well we will see what happens. Trusting God is alot about patience and submission.
I will write more when I can think more clearly. Keep us in your prayers. The stress is immense.
Love, Debbie

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