Archive for December, 2003

Follow the Leader

I have a new job. I am a waitress. A servant of the people. I get paid minimum wage plus tips. Some people think 10% is a standard tip. I guess it is, to some people. Some people don’t tip at all. Maybe they live on a fixed income and can’t afford the extra money. I don’t know. I have to learn to not take anything like that too personally. I have to learn a lot. A whole lot, it seems.

I am learning that I am easily angered internally, at work and at home, even if I don’t let it show externally (at work) it is still there more than I like. I want to be treated well and I get mad when I am not! I have to keep reminding myself that the statement “it is not I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” should be my goal. And… ” love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” should be a description of how I behave since I claim to be a follower of Christ. But more often than not I guess I am an admirer but not a follower. I need to work on my following skills!

I find that I am impatient, unkind in my thoughts. I envy the waitresses that are making bigger tips at a fancier restaurant. I have boasted that I AM A GOOD WAITRESS! even though I really am not. (Especially when we get really busy) I am proud when someone tells me how sweet I am. (If only they knew my thoughts when someone wrongs me) I may not be rude to strangers but I have been rude to family and for that I am so sorry. I have found self-seeking behavior in my heart. I am easily angered but I may not show it right away. I keep a record of wrongs though I know I shouldn’t.

I could go on and on confessing my sins and shortcomings, but I will save that for a more private forum. For now, it is enough to say, I have a lot to learn and a leader that is worth following not just admiring.

May we all grow in wisdom and endurance as we fight the good fight and run the good race following the Leader. May God forgive us our sins and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.


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Just when you thought…

Just when you thought it was safe to start grumbling…along comes a blessing that you can’t ignore.

Just when you thought you were going to fall into the thick, darkness of depression…someone comes along with a soothing word and takes your hand and turns on a light for you.

Just when you thought that you were all alone in the world with no one who cared…your friends all gather together and prove that you are wrong.

Just when you thought things were getting too bleak and scary to look ahead…someone comes along and reminds you that you are in the loving hands of your all-powerful Father, God.

I want to say thank you to all you someone’s who have come along when you should and been there when you were crucially needed. Keep being the hearts and eyes and hands and feet of our loving God. Keep answering his promptings. Never think that one word is being wasted or one act of kindness is too small or insignificant. You are the workmanship of God, created in Christ Jesus to do good works.

Bless you! Love, Debbie

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